This past Tuesday night at our regular WOW (Women of Worth) meeting at church, we had a speaker talk about perseverance. Hang on, hang tight, dont let go, and trust God always no matter what the circumstance. The Pastor even spoke on Sunday about "Im Still Here". We may have went through the valley, gone through muddy waters, lost everything, people talk about us, some dont like us, or whatever, WE ARE STILL HERE!. I think God is speaking to me this week and I am going through something that is going to be tough.
In past blogs I have written, I have spoken about my past relationships about being abused, cheated on, and how my life has went to shambles. Either I did it to myself, or my spouse did it to me. Im not saying it was all their fault, it was both. My last marriage really did it. I had alot of trust issues but did not have them until after I was divorced. I didnt know he cheated on me until after then. So, it took alot for me to be able to trust again. I am in a relationship now to where he does nothing against me to be able for me to have those insecurities, trust issues or anything against him. I am having to let go of those issues and Im telling you, its really hard. We have been dating for almost 2 years now and he has yet done anything wrong towards me. So, why is it so hard for me to let go? I have wanted to speak at our WOW meeting and the topic was going to be "Let Go and Let God". I was getting notes, scriptures and things together for it, but God spoke to me saying "Youre not ready for it. How can you speak on it when you havent let go of things yourself"? I thought about that and said "Youre right".
Isnt it amazing how God can speak to you and it just turns on that light that you can clearly see?
I am reading a book called "So Long Insecurity" by Beth Moore. This book has hit home more than once and if you do not have it, GET IT! Its 18 chapters, but short ones and its AMAZING. If you have a problem with insecurities, GET IT!
One problem I have had in the past few months is that my fiance has an ex g/f from the past that wont leave (I think she finally has) him alone. She found him on FB, called, txt, msg on yahoo, FB, the whole 9 yards. You know, I dont have a problem in people talking to their ex's because I talk to mine. The problem I had in her is: she NEVER learned to leave the past in the past. She was the type to say : If things were this way, it would have turned out different; if we did this, it could have turned this way; we need to do this, do that; call me without your g/f knowing; lets meet somewhere alone; I mean it just was getting WAY out of hand with her! I drew the line with her. I told her if she couldnt talk to him with respect, then she didnt need to do it at all. Then my daughter finally got involved and then it started again. Well, sorry, you dont mess with family. My daughter was nice about it, she really was. But this other woman got an attitude back. SORRY, that dont work either. So, when the phone calls started back, txts again, I had to take drastic measures. I blocked her from his FB, yahoo, phone and I hope its all stopped. I have prayed about it, went to the altar and got prayers from quite a few people about it. It was nothing but the devil working in our lives. The devil doesnt want to see happiness.
2Corithians 12:11
I have made a fool of myself,but you drove me to it. I ought to have been commended by you, for I am not in the least inferior to the "super apostles" even though I am nothing.
But, its that I didnt trust him, it was her I didnt trust. With the 2 messages this week, I have done some changes this week. The speaker we had on Tuesday nite, she knows the changes I am working on. So, I just have to hang on, hang tight and persevere.
Hebrews 10:35-36
Do not throw away your confidence; it will be richly rewarded.You need to persevere so that when you have done the will of God, you will recieve what He has promised.
I have to keep doing those changes and the rewards WILL be great from God. All rewards are great no matter what! God is wonderful!
Its time to sign off and I will leave you with this scripture:
1 John 5:14-15
This is the confidence we have in approaching God: that if we ask anything according to His will, He hears us. And if we know that He hears us-whatever we ask-we know that we have what we asked of Him.
Until next time,
Rebecca of Sunnybrook Farm
About Me
- Rebecca of Sunnybrook Farm
- My name is Rebecca Schoolcraft. I moved to Florida in March of 2008.I have 3 children,(which pics will def be posted)and they are my world.Jennifer is my oldest and married. Joseph is engaged to be married and Priscilla is expecting my first grandchild in December. I got introduced to Gulf Coast Assembly of God in North Port, Florida; by the person I am currently dating; in September of 08. I LOVE THIS CHURCH. I love ALL members within this church. I got renewed with the Lord on Feb. 15, 2009, and got rebaptized on June 14,2009. It is the best feeling in the world to be able to live for Jesus, rebuking the devil, telling him he is a liar, and to just GO AWAY!!!!. I am involved with the leadership team in our womens ministry in church, volunteer with our food pantry once a month, and try to help out when I can. Oh, if you are wondering about the name,Pastor Keith at our church calls me that everyonce in awhile, so it stuck with me :-). I love his sense of humor. The pastor and his wife are AWESOME people, and without them, sometimes I feel like I would have fell apart long ago.
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